As I've been spending a lot of time alone in my apartment, I've realized that I need a hobby. Maybe something really outdoorsy, like tennis or hiking. I think I would like that. And I want to go on a lot more midnight walks. =) THAT would be nice! (does anyone wanna go with me?)

Anyways. I've learned a lot about myself this past few months.

About...

..my passive ways of handling confrontations, ..
I need to learn how to stand up for myself. For the majority of my life, my mentality was that as long as I am the only one getting hurt, if it means that others won't get hurt, then I can handle it. That I can bear all things, but other's pain. THIS, I think, is selfish of me to do, because I am limiting the friendship and assuming that all hell would break loose--gotta give it a chance.

..my true developing passion for music and worship, ..

I have been studying so hard for musical theory. I'm not taking a class or anything, but this phase of exploring jazz chords, guitar chord variations, and different diatonic triads, has DEFINITELY got to be the peak of my musical interest and fascination. I thank God everyday for giving me this passion.

..and my bitterness.
I realized I hold grudges for soo long. The little habitual things don't get to me as much as the one BIG thing that someone does to hurt me--and then all the little things start to bug me. I need to learn to just LET GO. (not be such a drama queen)


so these are all the things that I need to work on.

later blogspot.